This forum should have like a morality or Psychology subforum.
Anyway,
What is your vice? It has to be something you feel guilty or ashamed of though. Like if you are a practicing homosexual and feel no shame or guilt, feel like it's completely healthy and natural, and don't see it as a disorder, don't list that as your vice.
I think you all know some of my vices, but I just cannot have fun without crystal meth. I can't pray and be spiritual without Tina. Everything is just arid and gloomy without Tina. It's a total joyless martyrdom and misery where I want to sleep all the time or fly into rage.
When I'm on the magic crystals, I'm the nicest , most meek, humble, non-combative , pious, wise little shit you ever met.
Those racist comments you heard from me and the hate speech about the prophet Muhammad and Islam was when I was withdrawling.
Most of the Kami I pray to, including Jesus Christ, Mary, and the Apostles, not to mention Hirohito, Haile Selassie, Malcolm X, Nafisa Joseph, the soldiers of Yasukuni Shrine, and countless others, are not white.
Yet I venerate them like they are little less than gods and godesses.
My point being, the hatred and psychosis you see coming from me is NEVER who I am when under the influence of Tina (as long as I don't abuse the fuck out of her and stay up for three days).
Here's the thing, I invoke all angels, Saints, Kami, and good Spirits to bless my magic crystals and pray that the blood of Jesus would cover them prior to smoking them or putting them into a syringe and shooting up (which I almost never IV).
I truly believe it becomes sacred Holy Communion with Kami. It becomes a religious experience where doing the dishes or sweeping the floor or working as a paper delivery boy is better than sex while sober.
Methamphetamine was discovered in Japan the year the Fascist party was discovered in 1919, so my connection to Japan and to the Fascist party also makes me that much more connected to Tina. She has become more than a part of me. Without Tina I am completely dead.
There is a reason when the Japs first came up with Crystal Meth, they called it "Philipon" which means "Love for work". When I am on meth I love to work, even when the boss is being an asshole.
On meth, if the boss is yelling at me I say "Yes sir" and say "Thank you Jesus for keeping me humble. Thank you for this cross that I must carry to atone for the sins of the world." Then I go deliver the papers to houses while making acts of love to my creator and Heavenly maidens, singing Hail Mary's as I work.
When I'm sober at work all I can feel are aches and pains, fatigue, exhaustion, misery, no love for penance and sacrifice, hatred, blaspehmy towards God, and just hate the fact that I was ever born.
COULD IT BE THAT THE VICES OF BEING SOBER ARE A WORSE EVIL THAN BEING ON METH??? Could it be perhaps that methamphetamine can do some people a little good?
By the way, I need 24 hour residential treatment. I was signed up to go. Last minute I got rejected.
Meanwhile, between you and I, I'm getting a quarter ounce today....THANK YOU DONALD TRUMP!!!
Anyway,
What is your vice? It has to be something you feel guilty or ashamed of though. Like if you are a practicing homosexual and feel no shame or guilt, feel like it's completely healthy and natural, and don't see it as a disorder, don't list that as your vice.
I think you all know some of my vices, but I just cannot have fun without crystal meth. I can't pray and be spiritual without Tina. Everything is just arid and gloomy without Tina. It's a total joyless martyrdom and misery where I want to sleep all the time or fly into rage.
When I'm on the magic crystals, I'm the nicest , most meek, humble, non-combative , pious, wise little shit you ever met.
Those racist comments you heard from me and the hate speech about the prophet Muhammad and Islam was when I was withdrawling.
Most of the Kami I pray to, including Jesus Christ, Mary, and the Apostles, not to mention Hirohito, Haile Selassie, Malcolm X, Nafisa Joseph, the soldiers of Yasukuni Shrine, and countless others, are not white.
Yet I venerate them like they are little less than gods and godesses.
My point being, the hatred and psychosis you see coming from me is NEVER who I am when under the influence of Tina (as long as I don't abuse the fuck out of her and stay up for three days).
Here's the thing, I invoke all angels, Saints, Kami, and good Spirits to bless my magic crystals and pray that the blood of Jesus would cover them prior to smoking them or putting them into a syringe and shooting up (which I almost never IV).
I truly believe it becomes sacred Holy Communion with Kami. It becomes a religious experience where doing the dishes or sweeping the floor or working as a paper delivery boy is better than sex while sober.
Methamphetamine was discovered in Japan the year the Fascist party was discovered in 1919, so my connection to Japan and to the Fascist party also makes me that much more connected to Tina. She has become more than a part of me. Without Tina I am completely dead.
There is a reason when the Japs first came up with Crystal Meth, they called it "Philipon" which means "Love for work". When I am on meth I love to work, even when the boss is being an asshole.
On meth, if the boss is yelling at me I say "Yes sir" and say "Thank you Jesus for keeping me humble. Thank you for this cross that I must carry to atone for the sins of the world." Then I go deliver the papers to houses while making acts of love to my creator and Heavenly maidens, singing Hail Mary's as I work.
When I'm sober at work all I can feel are aches and pains, fatigue, exhaustion, misery, no love for penance and sacrifice, hatred, blaspehmy towards God, and just hate the fact that I was ever born.
COULD IT BE THAT THE VICES OF BEING SOBER ARE A WORSE EVIL THAN BEING ON METH??? Could it be perhaps that methamphetamine can do some people a little good?
By the way, I need 24 hour residential treatment. I was signed up to go. Last minute I got rejected.
Meanwhile, between you and I, I'm getting a quarter ounce today....THANK YOU DONALD TRUMP!!!
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