Almighty God, all Angels, all Kami, all Saints, help me love, be calm, be patient with my Doctor , and explain to them , with maturity and Divinely inspired words, that the advice they are giving me is highly toxic.
It is true, that I have some Religious beliefs that I treat with great skepticism, and believe some of them could be delusional, but the Doctor's approach strikes me as dangerous and highly toxic, to dismiss all my convictions and the remarkable coincidences, as having no connections to unseen spiritual sentient beings, and having no meaning or special message for me, would actually bring some disasters in my life and behavior!
Please help me explain to my Doctor the fact that I could be a violent sociopath without integrity, without those signs, wonders, and religious convictions, so the Doctor telling me to abandon them is extremely unhealthy and dangerous for me and the community.
Also, please enlighten my Doctor to know that my love for ___, although I'm trying my best to overcome it, was actually the most healthy, best thing that ever happened to me. It got me sober, enabled me to console the mother of a suicide more than anyone, including immediate family, it has raised my moral standards, given me more virtues than anything else in my life, my love for her revolutionized my life, inspires me to do good deeds, is genuine altruistic love more than most people ever love anyone, and I genuinely care about her enough to not contact her anymore.
But to genuinely love some one with altruistic love and hope that prayer can positively benefit that person with grace and blessings, is not an unhealthy quality. In fact, my alternative is to be secular, believe prayer has no power, which will destroy my integrity, destroy my motive for good deeds, destroy my faith that eyes can see the deeds I do in secret, increase my risk of relapse, and make me a bigger threat to society, and will cause me to commit suicide.
Help the Doctor to see that my religious convictions, although sometimes strange, actually cause me to be more humble, more pure of heart, have custody of the eyes, help calm my anger, help me not covet, help me not envy, help me be disciplined, help me not be gluttonous, help me avoid selfishness, help me forgive, help me avoid hatred in all it's forms, and which are all EXTREMELY HEALTHY qualities and virtues to have.
___ has helped me change and stay sober, be honest, not steal, lead me to deeds of charity, caused me to see my ugly faults, and revolutionized my life, more than all other creatures I have met in real life combined, and all mental health professionals and medications combined, with many coincidences linked to her that seemed more than coincidence, so there seems to be some clear indications that she and I were supposed to meet.
It is now time we go our separate ways, but that doesn't mean my love for her is actually unhealthy or that it needs to die. It is eternal and goes beyond the grave. I haven't had a conversation with her since 2019, and if anything, my love for her has grown. The two years that I met with her regularly actually was the most healthy transforming thing that has ever taken place in the 34 years that I have been alive, and will affect me the rest of my life. Please convict the Doctor that it is true, because I know it is true.
And please help me to assist through love, deeds of charity, upright blameless living, blessing, and fervent prayer, a world that is very hurting, very wounded, very lonely, very sick, very sorrowful, very desperate. Help me see ___ in all people, that I will love and cherish all people as if they were her, because God is love, and I love her with altruism, which is a very good thing.
My surname is an alternative for John/Jack, an alternative for Jacob, the husband of ___ , and perhaps it could be more than coincidence that the person I love more than all relatives and human beings combined, the person who has influenced me more than all creatures combined, just happens to have the name of the spouse of my surname (alternative) in Scripture , who (she) represents the cross, the moon, suffering, and rejection in Scripture, and my middle name is Louis (my favorite canonized Saint Louis De Montfort is the only person I know of who said "The elect are Jacob, we are called to be like Jacob"). Perhaps there is meaning in that.
I met her because of the miracle of Fatima Portugal, which is why I live in this state, and I met her the 100 year anniversary of the first apparition of Fatima, to the very month, possibly the very same day (very close. The first apparition of Fatima was may 13 1917. I moved into higher ground May 18 2017 , and met her roughly five days prior to that).
Before that I had 1917 as my four digit pin # all the time in honor of that miracle , (which was a very anti-communist miracle prophesied in advance, and all the prophecies contained in the miracle about future events, all came true. I lived in Fatima Portugal for a while!).
Many seemingly paranormal coincidences came into my life as a result of meeting her, and no human has brought so many (What seem like) signs into my life that seem like they come from a supernatural world. So, consequently, a person who saved my life and revolutionized me, transformed me for the better, is a person I love very much, and it was love at first sight. I will probably never love some one that much again. It doesn't mean it is mental illness either.
Please oh creator and all healthy, good, virtuous , sentient beings, inspire myself and all people who I come into contact with, to make the world a better place. In every holy name I pray, Amen!
And may all Angels, Saints, and Sentient beings who are virtuous, pray for these intentions, and you gentle reader, please in your charity bless and pray for me!
It is true, that I have some Religious beliefs that I treat with great skepticism, and believe some of them could be delusional, but the Doctor's approach strikes me as dangerous and highly toxic, to dismiss all my convictions and the remarkable coincidences, as having no connections to unseen spiritual sentient beings, and having no meaning or special message for me, would actually bring some disasters in my life and behavior!
Please help me explain to my Doctor the fact that I could be a violent sociopath without integrity, without those signs, wonders, and religious convictions, so the Doctor telling me to abandon them is extremely unhealthy and dangerous for me and the community.
Also, please enlighten my Doctor to know that my love for ___, although I'm trying my best to overcome it, was actually the most healthy, best thing that ever happened to me. It got me sober, enabled me to console the mother of a suicide more than anyone, including immediate family, it has raised my moral standards, given me more virtues than anything else in my life, my love for her revolutionized my life, inspires me to do good deeds, is genuine altruistic love more than most people ever love anyone, and I genuinely care about her enough to not contact her anymore.
But to genuinely love some one with altruistic love and hope that prayer can positively benefit that person with grace and blessings, is not an unhealthy quality. In fact, my alternative is to be secular, believe prayer has no power, which will destroy my integrity, destroy my motive for good deeds, destroy my faith that eyes can see the deeds I do in secret, increase my risk of relapse, and make me a bigger threat to society, and will cause me to commit suicide.
Help the Doctor to see that my religious convictions, although sometimes strange, actually cause me to be more humble, more pure of heart, have custody of the eyes, help calm my anger, help me not covet, help me not envy, help me be disciplined, help me not be gluttonous, help me avoid selfishness, help me forgive, help me avoid hatred in all it's forms, and which are all EXTREMELY HEALTHY qualities and virtues to have.
___ has helped me change and stay sober, be honest, not steal, lead me to deeds of charity, caused me to see my ugly faults, and revolutionized my life, more than all other creatures I have met in real life combined, and all mental health professionals and medications combined, with many coincidences linked to her that seemed more than coincidence, so there seems to be some clear indications that she and I were supposed to meet.
It is now time we go our separate ways, but that doesn't mean my love for her is actually unhealthy or that it needs to die. It is eternal and goes beyond the grave. I haven't had a conversation with her since 2019, and if anything, my love for her has grown. The two years that I met with her regularly actually was the most healthy transforming thing that has ever taken place in the 34 years that I have been alive, and will affect me the rest of my life. Please convict the Doctor that it is true, because I know it is true.
And please help me to assist through love, deeds of charity, upright blameless living, blessing, and fervent prayer, a world that is very hurting, very wounded, very lonely, very sick, very sorrowful, very desperate. Help me see ___ in all people, that I will love and cherish all people as if they were her, because God is love, and I love her with altruism, which is a very good thing.
My surname is an alternative for John/Jack, an alternative for Jacob, the husband of ___ , and perhaps it could be more than coincidence that the person I love more than all relatives and human beings combined, the person who has influenced me more than all creatures combined, just happens to have the name of the spouse of my surname (alternative) in Scripture , who (she) represents the cross, the moon, suffering, and rejection in Scripture, and my middle name is Louis (my favorite canonized Saint Louis De Montfort is the only person I know of who said "The elect are Jacob, we are called to be like Jacob"). Perhaps there is meaning in that.
I met her because of the miracle of Fatima Portugal, which is why I live in this state, and I met her the 100 year anniversary of the first apparition of Fatima, to the very month, possibly the very same day (very close. The first apparition of Fatima was may 13 1917. I moved into higher ground May 18 2017 , and met her roughly five days prior to that).
Before that I had 1917 as my four digit pin # all the time in honor of that miracle , (which was a very anti-communist miracle prophesied in advance, and all the prophecies contained in the miracle about future events, all came true. I lived in Fatima Portugal for a while!).
Many seemingly paranormal coincidences came into my life as a result of meeting her, and no human has brought so many (What seem like) signs into my life that seem like they come from a supernatural world. So, consequently, a person who saved my life and revolutionized me, transformed me for the better, is a person I love very much, and it was love at first sight. I will probably never love some one that much again. It doesn't mean it is mental illness either.
Please oh creator and all healthy, good, virtuous , sentient beings, inspire myself and all people who I come into contact with, to make the world a better place. In every holy name I pray, Amen!
And may all Angels, Saints, and Sentient beings who are virtuous, pray for these intentions, and you gentle reader, please in your charity bless and pray for me!
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