Are you able to forgive your enemies?

[PacificDude]

There was this super popular dude in my high school that seemed to take great sadistic pleasure in making my life as miserable as possible in my school.

He'd call me a faggot whenever he saw me in the halls, and literally came close to drowning me once during swimming class.

All the girls loved him, and most of the dudes in our school either feared or respected him. I just did my best to stay out of his way big time.

Anyway, I ended up dropping out of HS (not just because of him), and I soon forgot about him as the years rolled by.

Recently on one of my social media pages, he apologized to me, and told me about how his wife and two kids died in a horrible car wreck. He asked me if God was punishing him for being such a major dick in HS?

I told him I didn't believe in God in a traditional sense, and also I did not believe in karma (even though I was a Buddhist). So he was not being punished for any past transgressions as far as I was concerned.

Well guess who sent me a Christmas card last Christmas? Yep. My good old enemy from my much hated HS days.

[Matthew Mussolini]

Dude I can't believe this thread popped up in my notifications as me being subscribed to it when I never subscribed to it. That happens now and then I know, but...

The last thing I wrote in my journal before checking my notifications was, "I wanted Lia to feel my nightmare I live with the torture I do.

My treatment of her though is like the man from the parable who was forgiven by a King (who pitied him) a great debt. The man who was forgiven the debt proceeded to beat someone who owed him a much smaller debt. He was handed over to the torturers , which Christ warned us would happen to us if we do not forgive from the heart.

I may not have beaten Lia physically, but that doesn't mean my words, refusal to leave her alone, and costing her a job, didn't cause her much grief. It is a sick mess. I have been handed over to the torturers".

That was what I wrote word for word exactly before your post about forgiveness showed up in my notifications. It was about Christ's main parable about forgiveness. If that isn't a sign, the Pope isn't Catholic lol.

[Matthew Mussolini]

That's really fucked up the guy almost drowned you and repeatedly called you a faggot. That had to be hell. Thanks for reminding me what people go through in high school. I did two years of my high school years in a correctional facility.

I had people make fun of me and I just told them if they continue I'm going to take a gun to school and blow their brains out. People left me alone after that but I had to see the principal and eventually I ran away from home and that was the end of my high school experience.

I lasted less than a year in high school, but it was hell!

[Matthew Mussolini]

There was this super popular dude in my high school that seemed to take great sadistic pleasure in making my life as miserable as possible in my school.

He'd call me a faggot whenever he saw me in the halls, and literally came close to drowning me once during swimming class.

All the girls loved him, and most of the dudes in our school either feared or respected him. I just did my best to stay out of his way big time.

Anyway, I ended up dropping out of HS (not just because of him), and I soon forgot about him as the years rolled by.

Recently on one of my social media pages, he apologized to me, and told me about how his wife and two kids died in a horrible car wreck. He asked me if God was punishing him for being such a major dick in HS?

I told him I didn't believe in God in a traditional sense, and also I did not believe in karma (even though I was a Buddhist). So he was not being punished for any past transgressions as far as I was concerned.

Well guess who sent me a Christmas card last Christmas? Yep. My good old enemy from my much hated HS days.

If you don't mind me asking, "what did some of the letter say?"

[Undies]

Dude I can't believe this thread popped up in my notifications as me being subscribed to it when I never subscribed to it.

it's because you're subscribed to the faith and spirituality forum.


as for the thread subject, i don't think i have any enemies. and there's a few people that probably could have qualified over the years, so i guess that means my answer on forgiveness is yes.

[PacificDude]

If you don't mind me asking, "what did some of the letter say?"

Matthew Mussolini I think he was drunk when he wrote it... haha. But still he was being sincere. He asked me to pray for him, and I told him I would big time. Also, he asked me if I could ever forgive him? I told him that he was not the main reason I left HS (honestly, I hated most of the so-called teachers more than my fellow students).

He also said he'd like to meet up at a bar in the near future. I'm still considering that offer ;-)

[neonspectraltoast]

I don't think I have any enemies, either. Well...there's this one guy who recently told me "you're dead" cause my sister kicked him in the nuts twenty years ago.

[PacificDude]

That's really fucked up the guy almost drowned you and repeatedly called you a faggot. That had to be hell. Thanks for reminding me what people go through in high school. I did two years of my high school years in a correctional facility.

I had people make fun of me and I just told them if they continue I'm going to take a gun to school and blow their brains out. People left me alone after that but I had to see the principal and eventually I ran away from home and that was the end of my high school experience.

I lasted less than a year in high school, but it was hell!

Matthew Mussolini That's what puzzles me the most about you, Matt. You have such an incredible imagination and are a genius with words. How the hell did you accomplish these miracles without any true formal education? I struggle with basic punctuation - and I did finally make it to college for three years. So what gives :-)

[PacificDude]

I don't think I have any enemies, either. Well...there's this one guy who recently told me "you're dead" cause my sister kicked him in the nuts twenty years ago.

neonspectraltoast Maybe he deserved it ... haha.

[neonspectraltoast]

He was groping all the girls. He started messaging her recently, calling her a slut and trash. Then he started messaging me, telling me the same. Dude's married, with children.

[PacificDude]

He was groping all the girls. He started messaging her recently, calling her a slut and trash. Then he started messaging me, telling me the same. Dude's married, with children.

That's some scary shit. I'd stay as far away as possible from the obvious freak...

[Matthew Mussolini]

Matthew Mussolini That's what puzzles me the most about you, Matt. You have such an incredible imagination and are a genius with words. How the hell did you accomplish these miracles without any true formal education? I struggle with basic punctuation - and I did finally make it to college for three years. So what gives :-)

lol! Genius? Only you would say that

I pray to stay humble. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement.

Whatever gifts I have I don't know what reason they are there. I read a lot and pray a lot, plus have lots of people that pray for me.

I seriously would give all the credit to something far greater than myself that sometimes works through me or provides the anointing. It's really many different sentient beings (Kami) that I invoke all together as "Holy Roman Empire of the Rising Sun" (every spirit including God that has invested in me).

I pray to them and do what they seem to want me to do. Some of what I do is a mistake, so my ability to discern isn't so good. My obedience to these spirit entities isn't very thorough and I attribute stuff to them that I'm sure they have nothing to do with.

But as a general rule, I'd say my prayers to them (the Kami) is responsible for my even being still alive, as well as any positive qualities I have or good deeds or accomplishments.

[tumbling.dice]

He was groping all the girls. He started messaging her recently, calling her a slut and trash. Then he started messaging me, telling me the same. Dude's married, with children.

I'd take screenshots of his messages and send to his wife. That's just me, though. So no, I have no problem forgiving my enemies...after I get even.

[neonspectraltoast]

It's kind of flattering that people want to kill me. Just bizarre to me that they're that jealous.

[Matthew Mussolini]

It's kind of flattering that people want to kill me. Just bizarre to me that they're that jealous.

Why are people so jealous of you?