I haven't spent money on drugs in about 10 days.

[Matthew Mussolini]

My Dad was so happy to hear that I haven't spent money on drugs in ten days. I also haven't traded anything for drugs in ten days, and never have I performed a sexual favor for drugs because I couldn't enjoy the high were I to obtain it that way.

So, the only drugs I've done these past ten days was for letting someone use my apartment to store his bike.

Which means all things considered, that would almost qualify as using in moderation. I'm ready to just deal with the misery of sobriety. Better to be bedridden, depressed, unmotivated, and sober than full of motivation, euphoria, inspiration, and on drugs.

At least that is the philosophy and attitude I'm trying to mainain.

Wish me luck!

I think my Dad though interpreted my statement as meaning I've been sober for 10 days. What he doesn't know won't hurt him.

[PacificDude]

Matthew Mussolini Congrats! Sobriety has its rewards... just takes time to figure it all out :-)

[Matthew Mussolini]

I didn't use anything to day. Miserable as hell! Praise the Lord! Misery is so much fun if you keep telling yourself it is a good thing.

[GLEN......]

Pleased To Read This......Keep Up The Good Work......



Cheers Glen.

[neonspectraltoast]

I didn't buy any alcohol tonight.

[GLEN......]

So Far This Thread Is Shaping Up As A "Good News Thread".........Tis Nice To See......



Cheers Glen.

[Matthew Mussolini]

I didn't buy any alcohol tonight.

Is that typical of you?

[Matthew Mussolini]

So Far This Thread Is Shaping Up As A "Good News Thread".........Tis Nice To See......



Cheers Glen.

It isn't a thread of any firm conviction that I'm quitting, but I might actually be done spending money on the crystal crap. There are two tweakers I still let crash at my place who I'm really too fond of.

Who knows, maybe the sober Matt is actually a human being or something. I wouldn't know. Been so long.

[neonspectraltoast]

For a little while now. A bottle of vodka. I just wanted to have fun, but it makes me too loose with my tongue.

[neonspectraltoast]

It's gotten so I'll say anything just to be somewhere on someone's mind.

[6-eyed]

My Dad was so happy to hear that I haven't spent money on drugs in ten days. I also haven't traded anything for drugs in ten days, and never have I performed a sexual favor for drugs because I couldn't enjoy the high were I to obtain it that way.

So, the only drugs I've done these past ten days was for letting someone use my apartment to store his bike.

Which means all things considered, that would almost qualify as using in moderation. I'm ready to just deal with the misery of sobriety. Better to be bedridden, depressed, unmotivated, and sober than full of motivation, euphoria, inspiration, and on drugs.

At least that is the philosophy and attitude I'm trying to mainain.

Wish me luck!

I think my Dad though interpreted my statement as meaning I've been sober for 10 days. What he doesn't know won't hurt him.

You've mentioned before that you’re unmotivated and downtrodden when sober, and you sit around doing nothing.

Perhaps you have to force yourself to leave your apartment and change environment to stimulate your brain. Go to the park or something. Watch the birds at the lake. Or if the weather sucks, find yourself a good movie.

[Matthew Mussolini]

You've mentioned before that you’re unmotivated and downtrodden when sober, and you sit around doing nothing.

Perhaps you have to force yourself to leave your apartment and change environment to stimulate your brain. Go to the park or something. Watch the birds at the lake. Or if the weather sucks, find yourself a good movie.

Yeah...I keep telling myself to do that and do indeed go to the Cathedral or Capitol Hill but my body seriously desires one thing when sober and that is food and sleep (not even porn or sex could tempt me, and it's hard to journal, pray, study, or even post at TF when sober).

It has now been roughly 17 days since I've spent money on drugs. Typically the drugs show up free because someone wants me to keep their possessions or cat at my place. But some of those days were totally sober.

Listening to music is about the one thing that gives me a little relief with some instant coffee. So I suppose putting headphones in and going for a walk or bike ride is a good idea.