Does anyone else here struggle with poor judgement?
Oh higher power, any Kami, Spirits, or angels willing to help me. I just hate being alive, living a stupid unenlightened, confused life.
Drug addiction is so worthless, and now that I'm sober I realize how incredibly stupid my life and behavior has been, how stupid and reckless I have been, how creepy and disgusting, how undisciplined and immature! Being a drug addict is just gross! It kills not only the addict but harms so many innocent people!
Oddly enough, being aware of that just makes me want to go back to using drugs!
Please kill me soon Lord! Maybe there is a place for me other than earth.
I'm too old for this immature stupidity! When sober I can't stand seeing people high or being around it, I can't stand who I am, can't stand what I've done, can't stand a look in the mirror, while at the same time, I just want to go back to using.
God help us, and reward those whom I have hurt with my poor judgement! Even those whom I have offended at TF! I am notorious for saying the stupidest things sometimes!
Oh higher power, any Kami, Spirits, or angels willing to help me. I just hate being alive, living a stupid unenlightened, confused life.
Drug addiction is so worthless, and now that I'm sober I realize how incredibly stupid my life and behavior has been, how stupid and reckless I have been, how creepy and disgusting, how undisciplined and immature! Being a drug addict is just gross! It kills not only the addict but harms so many innocent people!
Oddly enough, being aware of that just makes me want to go back to using drugs!
Please kill me soon Lord! Maybe there is a place for me other than earth.
I'm too old for this immature stupidity! When sober I can't stand seeing people high or being around it, I can't stand who I am, can't stand what I've done, can't stand a look in the mirror, while at the same time, I just want to go back to using.
God help us, and reward those whom I have hurt with my poor judgement! Even those whom I have offended at TF! I am notorious for saying the stupidest things sometimes!

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