After about 20 years of smoking weed i found something else. Im really curious to see the responses on this. Or lack of.
About 13 years ago i was doing a job for some psychics. They wanted to do a trade out. Which is normal in the small town i was working in. So i said, "ok." Told me to go sit down and stay still and she left the room. While i sat there i felt like emotions of fear began hitting me. I thought i don't think thats good. She came back after about 5 minutes or so and asked what i experienced. Having an open mind i decided to continued whatever this was. I have heard of meditation but i dont think i ever actually knew what it was.
For whatever the reason as there were a few or so and don't know exactly which one was driving me i decided to have a daily practice of meditation. I became overwhelmed in curiosity and devotion to the practice to see where it would lead me.
I wound up going to India to spend some time at an ashram. Another in the states. My practice became more important to me than other things. Not beyond my personal responsibilities to earn a living and being accountable for my life. I did walk away from a successful business i had so i can have more of my attention on my practice.
Over time i began to experience getting high sorta like smoking weed but without the side effects i would get from smoking. During much of this time i continued to smoke a little bit of weed. Then i stopped because i became confused about what was this joy coming from. The weed? The meditation practice? so i totally stopped smoking weed. It was weird going to sleep without being stoned to some degree. As time went on i began to experience this high for longer and longer periods of time. I began to feel a little nuts. Simply because i didn't know how this is possible? I have heard some things. Read some things. But try talking to somebody into spirituality that you get high like your smoking weed. They have no idea. Later this high stuck. In that it became to be always there.
Finally i met a guru whom could explain to me what is going on. I felt so relieved. The feminine aspect of the divine for lack of a better word expresses herself through the nervous system as joy.
About 13 years ago i was doing a job for some psychics. They wanted to do a trade out. Which is normal in the small town i was working in. So i said, "ok." Told me to go sit down and stay still and she left the room. While i sat there i felt like emotions of fear began hitting me. I thought i don't think thats good. She came back after about 5 minutes or so and asked what i experienced. Having an open mind i decided to continued whatever this was. I have heard of meditation but i dont think i ever actually knew what it was.
For whatever the reason as there were a few or so and don't know exactly which one was driving me i decided to have a daily practice of meditation. I became overwhelmed in curiosity and devotion to the practice to see where it would lead me.
I wound up going to India to spend some time at an ashram. Another in the states. My practice became more important to me than other things. Not beyond my personal responsibilities to earn a living and being accountable for my life. I did walk away from a successful business i had so i can have more of my attention on my practice.
Over time i began to experience getting high sorta like smoking weed but without the side effects i would get from smoking. During much of this time i continued to smoke a little bit of weed. Then i stopped because i became confused about what was this joy coming from. The weed? The meditation practice? so i totally stopped smoking weed. It was weird going to sleep without being stoned to some degree. As time went on i began to experience this high for longer and longer periods of time. I began to feel a little nuts. Simply because i didn't know how this is possible? I have heard some things. Read some things. But try talking to somebody into spirituality that you get high like your smoking weed. They have no idea. Later this high stuck. In that it became to be always there.
Finally i met a guru whom could explain to me what is going on. I felt so relieved. The feminine aspect of the divine for lack of a better word expresses herself through the nervous system as joy.
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